Let's Disappear Together

**Meditation**
**[MUSIC BLOG: most of my blogs are typically written with a single influential background song that is played on repeat, so to get the full effect, play the song in the background while reading the blog.]**

There's a difference between emo and meditation.

Emo, deriving from the term "emotional" focuses primarily on thinking bad thoughts and likely death. The word emo in today's culture has adapted a social connotation of one who is negative, suicidal, and down right disliked for their dark views on life.

Conversely, meditation is the general term for "deep thinking," at least to my connotation. It's the same exchange of thinking deep (both good and bad) about life and reflecting on it. From evidence of this blog, I'm what I guess I would call meditating and blogging at the same time, so here it goes.

Deep forests, and blue oceans, and miles and miles of flowers and grass and beautiful landscapes. It's what you see in movies, and in pictures, and if you're lucky, in real life. It's such a different feeling when you appreciate things like that. But what I'm focusing on is the false hope that they ensue. The great feeling of joy and a sense of beauty you get when you look at something beautiful or breathtaking is so fake, it's making my head spin.

Deep down, in everything beautiful is error. Somewhere, someplace, there's something wrong that totally throws off all judgment that you ever had on it. Whether it be a person, place, or thing that you consider beautiful, there's always something that destroys that innocent beauty you have withheld in your mind. Those miles upon miles of ocean water rested under the setting sun may be breathtaking, but that water could swallow up and destroy more lives than you can imagine. The creatures that embark it's waters destroy other creatures. While on the surface, it's beautiful, deep down, there are flaws - there's life.

We try to focus on the good times, and we try to focus on the beautiful things in life, but we remember, all beauty has it's limits, and all good things come to an end.

Life brings along these flaws. For every good moment, there's ten thousand bad ones. And we're told everyday, that the bad one's make us who we are, and they make us stronger. But let's face it, they suck!

My favorite quote, hands down, comes from an amazing film titled "Pay It Forward." The quote is simply:

"Life is shit."

Makes sense, huh? I'd like to think so. There are just so many negative and horrible things in this world that it make you wonder why endure and struggle? And the only real answer we can ever begin to muster is that we live for the good moments. Well, I have experienced my fair share of good moments, some more powerful than others, and for the most part, they're worth it.

We all have goals. And we all have dreams. It's a matter of getting to them, and achieving them. Those images and pictures, and scenes I mentioned earlier seem like the perfect escape; and sometimes they are. Just thinking about standing upon a mountain top stretched miles and miles across the open air with the rising sun sounds so relaxing, but what if it's the very same mountain top you're stranded on, and have been for weeks. That same beauty, now becomes a nightmare. This pretty much coincides and can be applied to many things in life. Life is beautiful in and of itself, but it can also be hell at the same time. I guess that's where our emos and meditators act.

Keeping the scatterbrained theme going, we're also told to live life on the edge. "Live like we're dying" sings Kris Allen. It's that same attitude that ends our lives too. So contradicting, but such a rush at the very same time. We're asked to take risks, but reprimanded when we screw up, or get really unlucky. Life, is nothing but one big risk. You've got a million and one decisions to make that could alter your life every moment you decide, and every decision is another risk. Sometimes, our decisions get the best of us, and we make the wrong ones, again and again. This is usually when we just want to disappear.

Let's disappear together. We can run, run into the woods, and the mountain tops, and the oceans, and get away from it all. What good will that do us? Mentally, it can be alleviating, but physically, and in today's world, it can put you in some really bad situations. But then again, I guess it really is all about what you put your mind to. We accomplish what we want to, or better yet, can do. It's just really amazing how this life works. This same life that we all experience, but in different eyes, and different relations, and different thoughts, and different smells. It's like as we all know it, personally and individually. Sometimes, we think about ending it, we think about having someone else end it for us. Sometimes we think about life without us, life without ever meeting us, life without our existence ever forthcoming. Sometimes, we think about life without us.

Most of the time, we just want to disappear. So I end with this, and this I say:

let's disappear together.